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  1. Fairies are sort of somewhere between a true mortal and a true immortal, beings of both base flesh and unbound spirit, both of the world and beyond it. Personally I think we have the best of both worlds in many ways, but that's just my opinion. We can feel and experience sensation as mortals do, but our bodies can be molded to our will. It's not hard to just make ourselves ignore pain if we wish, or even experience pain as pleasure. We can even muck about with our own brains. It can be dangerous, but our strong spirits can keep us at least somewhat safe most of the time. If our bodies die, we can exist as pure spirit and come back as long as we still possess the will to live. The problem is we need new bodies to come back. We can't breed like mortals do, but we can lay eggs to use as spare bodies. Eggs we lay or 'fertilize' ourselves we can enter right away no matter how far away they are. They are already sympathetically 'part of us' as far as magic is concerned. There are also places in fairyland where many fairies will gather a lot of eggs for anyone who comes by. Fairies can sprinkle a bit of fairy dust, which is made up of dead scales that fake off from our wings when we fly and therefore also sympathetically 'part of us', and then we will be able to find them as a spirit. Other eggs we would need to wander as a lost spirit until we stumble on. It's often really hard to describe what being a spirit is like and it doesn't help that it's often hard to remember anything as a spirit, everything we do as one feels kind of like a dream. because a pure spirit is unbound from any particular place and can exist in many places at once (mostly any place we have a strong magical presence in, find personally important, or have parts of our body around) and at the same time nowhere at all. Time is also really wonky as a spirit. It passes, but not in any easily understandable way. Though some fairies have learned to project their spirit into the material world as a wisp, temporarily focusing themselves to one time and place. We can do it sometimes when we are dreaming too, kind of like a form of astral projection. That's one reason why fairies are often depicted as glowing balls. We can even learn to shape our wisp form and often give it wings or even make them look like little glowing people. Of course we could also make ourselves into little glowing people in our physical bodies too. The only downside is that our spirits can't really think that well on their own and the longer we spend as one the more we tend to revert to a more childlike or even animallike mentality. It's not much of a problem if we are just projecting in our sleep, but if we don't have a body it can be much worse. When we have a body again we can recover, but sometimes if we stay dead to long we can forget things for a while and act loopy. We don't tend to talk much as wisps, and when we do it's often random childish nonsense. Some fairies can learn to project themselves really well though, keeping most of their wits about them and can use projections for scouting or exploring or delivering messages. We can actually use any egg to form a new body not just ones laid by a fairy, but using an animal egg (particularly a fertilized one) can sometimes cause a bit of 'blending'. This is usually harmless, causing some easily reversible mutations and a few short lived impulses or urges, and sometimes fairies will even purposefully do it to experiment or gain some kind of power. In fact, this might be how fairies got wings in the first place. I am honestly not too sure about that one. Or even how the whole egg thing got started. Pretty sure fairies weren't always like this. Anyway it's probobly not a good idea to try it with any being's egg that has a strong spirit of their own like a dragon, as it can cause weird effects and even can cause soul fusions. We can also sometimes gain powers when we come back depending on what happened to our body. As we are still connected in part to our bodies for a bit sympathetically even after death, we can sometimes draw on power from where we died when we come back. Usually this is kind of useless, but in theory a fairy who is, say, killed by being thrown into a volcano might be able to come back with more powerful fire magic or as a fire fairy. One who died of freezing to death in the arctic or in the dead of winter might come back with more powerful ice magic or as an ice fairy. It only really works if something in the environment caused the death.
  2. Oh! Blind spots! I see! Hehe, though are the other places places where the eye can't see or just places where vision is blocked by other things? Do you really hate free will or just hate other people's free will? I rather like mine! :3 Then again, nice thing about free will is you can choose to give it up if you want to. <3 I think most divine beings are like that in some ways and many are far 'older' then you might think, but since many sort of exist 'outside time' and might exists in multiple dimensions or timelines it's hard to really judge things that way. Hehe, as for us fairies, I think we kinda have part of both mortal and immortal experience. We have semi-mortal flesh, but immortal or near immortal souls. I enjoy it, and I think it might be fun to have you as a fairy friend, but if you can't stand mortal life it might be hard to exist as a fairy. Like I said before, fairies need to love their own existence. Because if a fairy really deep down wants to stop existing, they won't come back. But I would love to have you as one of us if you wanted! We could have so much fun together! :3
  3. Seven what? Existences? Oh I promise there are way way more then that. Anyway, still sounds way too neat and orderly to me, far too much like just another pantheon of god-like beings who think they run everything. There are a lot of those ya know. That's the problems with describing the cosmic forces behind stuff though, is we could both pick any system we want and equally be right. I guess I do the same thing huh?
  4. I know, I know, it isn't always easy. Not even for immortals, let alone mortals. And it gets less and less easy the less you have to care, the less reason there is to engage, The more things don't go the way you want the less you want to try. But, well, thing is, when you are at your last rope and you have nothing to look forward to, no reason to continue, nothing at all... Well, you can really only push yourself to keep existing, or just... stop. I think I rather suffer then stop... Easy for me to say now, I know. But still, heck, I think I could even learn to enjoy suffering in a perverse way. I think lots of people enjoy their own suffering more then they might admit. Anger, sorrow, envy, fear... Don't you... sort of like it? Don't you feel a bit more alive raging at an unfair world? Doesn't it feel make things feel more potent when you cry? Doesn't it lift the burden when you covet others? Don't you feel your heart beating when you are afraid? I don't know, but I understand the feeling of winding myself into knots. Of being assaulted by these negative emotions. But, for me at least, it's cathartic to just have a fit sometimes. It's amazing to be able to feel things. It's amazing that feeling exists. It's amazing that it means something. To be sure, it's probobly best used as a light salt, a flavoring to normal moods. If you have too much salt everything will taste awful, and you can't just eat a meal of pure salt. Maybe it's the same way with emotions? Even still, hold on to them, even your worst ones I say. That's what I mean by loving your own existence. Hate your life all you want. But... Maybe that hatred is worth holding on to if nothing else is. Shinryu is also the Japanese word for Shenlong, which can mean spirit dragon or god dragon and is a being that controls wind, clouds and rain. No idea about a sokaran, but the way you describe it sounds like one of those invisibility fields that wrap light around things, or maybe a blind spot. Did you know there is one spot in human's field of vision that they can't see? It's hard to notice normally but were the optic nerve connects to the eyeball there is a spot human brains just 'fill in' with whatever is neerby. Makes you wonder. What if there are somethings that are so impossible in some ways, people's vision just fills them in or replaces them with something else? Honestly I always had a problem with the idea that any particular set of beings that 'govern aspects of existence'. I think you underestimate just how big existence is sometimes. You could easily say existence includes 'multiple existences', many places were there is a different set of beings govern aspects of existence arising from different beliefs, or ones where no being governs anything, or anything else. Every conceivable idea about every possible reality and unreality. Every person have their own beliefs about what if any beings should be at the top if any, every work of fiction describes a world that might have different rules and ideas. What makes any description of what is behind it all any more right or wrong? Not saying you aren't telling the truth, but it's your truth. Not necessarily mine. The world you find yourself is could just be outside the part of existence where your 'Divine Twenty-Four' hold sway. That they exist, there is is little doubt. Everything you can think of exists somewhere. :3
  5. You know I was thinking... since people like quests so darn much and also seem to like dumb social media apps so damn much, why hasn't there been a questing app?


    I can see it now... It could be used privately as a simple to do list or publicly to post things people need help with online, it could have a chibi widdle knight mascot who liked to say "Oh ho! A Quest!", you could take pictures of stuff to post with your quest.


    Maybe helping out with other people's quests could get you 'experience points' to raise your 'quest level', which ultimately doesn't do anything. Maybe people can offer small virtual rewards with their quests somehow.


    Is this an incredibly dumb idea? Probably. Is it any more dumb then any other social networking app idea? Have you seen some of the dumb social networking apps?

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    2. Kayzee


      Maybe you can have social circles to share quests with people you know. Post something to your friends and maybe someone will do it. If people are going to be wasting time doing silly fetch quests in made up RPGs, helping out some friends doesn't sound like too bad an alternative. :P I could even imagine seeing posters and stuff for events with QR codes to give you an 'attend x' quest or something. :P

    3. Shiggy


      I wouldn't be surprised if it already exists, they are adding gamification everywhere. I have quests and achievements in my school cursus

    4. Kayzee


      I still think adding arbitrary goals and stating things in game terms somehow making boring things 'fun' is a really really silly idea that shouldn't work at all. Yet somehow people keep doing it and praising the idea as genius. Is it because the people doing it are out of touch with how real gamers actually think or do people actually enjoy this kind of thing? I donno.


      On the other hand, if you have tasks that need doing, I can't think of a better way to organize them.

  6. When it comes to matters of faith everyone has their own beliefs and fairies are no different. What does tend to be different for fairies is the way faith is treated. In general the fairy approach to religion can be summarized as 'that which is worshiped or revered gains power'. It is in someways the opposite of the common human approach, which can be sometimes be thought of as 'that which is powerful is worshiped or revered'. Of course it's not that cut an dry on either side, but it works as a good general starting point for the difference between common fairy and common human beliefs. For a fairy, religious devotion isn't thought of as much as about 'belief' as it is about 'choice'. To choose to hold something sacred or holy is to invest power into that thing, the more of one's own energy one chooses to devote to something the more power it gains in their eyes. The more power and renown something has, the more it can do and therefor the more useful it is to worship, but this is often a secondary concern and many fairies believe that worship for purely pragmatic reasons is less potent then devoting one's self to something just because they genuinely want to. Fairies do often hold that such purely pragmatic belief is done in 'bad faith'. Fairies tend to also similarly look down on the idea of religion being some sort of 'duty' or 'obligation'. To most fairies any religious belief that demands worship or devotion is at best poisonous to the ones who follow it and at worse poisonous to everything around them as well. They also tend to be opposed to organized religious institutions (of significant scale at least) and especially opposed to anything they even suspect to be any kind of religious indoctrination by one. In fact fairies tend to shy away from the idea of having any kind of fixed 'canon' of teachings or beliefs, and instead prefer syncretically following whatever they feel fit. Most religious practices are often thought best carried out in private, and mass public displays of worship are often seen as disruptive or suspicious. This doesn't mean religious gatherings or places of worship don't exist, just that fairies rarely are that overt about prayer or other such rituals and preaching is usually kept to a minimum. Fairies tend to find most common human religions and religious practices to be repugnant, dangerous, or at least very very silly (especially Christianity, on witch there are also many historical reasons to bare a grudge), although most will grudgingly accept a person's choice in following one if they show 'true faith' as a fairy recognizes it. While fairies do often worship many gods and other spirits (as personalized representatives of abstract concepts and as beings in their own right), they aren't necessarily thought of in the general sense as much more then a human might think of famous celebrities. In other words, often awe inspiring and worthy of respect for their power and fame, but not beings beyond understanding or reproach. To a fairy, gods and other spirits are just like any other being, at least in that regard. A fairy might just as well worship another fairy they are a fan of, or even a human in rare cases, living or dead. A fairy wouldn't necessarily see much difference between a fan convention and a temple, a cosplayer or a priest. What matters to a fairy is the devotion and energy put into something, not the exact form that devotion takes. That doesn't mean that that's all fairies worship however. To fairies anything and everything can be a target of worship, from directly worshiping abstract concepts to revering inanimate objects and everything in between. The wonders of nature are a common choice. Fairies often make little shrines of a sort out of things like a refreshing spring or well, a waterfall, a neat cave, a particularly large tree or pleasant grove, a small hill, anywhere that seems like a nice meeting place. Sometimes fairies may put up some altars made from a pile of stones or standing stones marked with runes. There might be entryways marked by Stonehenge-like gates. Sometimes it's just decoration, but sometimes it means a fairy felt the need to protect a place with magic and a barrier will keep out any who don't go through the gate. Sometimes these gates act as portals to other places. Well loved objects are thought to be in some sense holy as well. Objects with sentimental value are prized and said to hold lots of power. Indeed, magically a well loved object can be very powerful, and can hold many blessings or sometimes powerful curses. An object's history and it's connection to the history of others is very important to many fairies. Though they don't truly exist in the fairy world, museums are also places a fairy might think of like a temple of a sort. One not only holding precious objects for display, but also in charge of understanding and explaining their history. Many fairies tend to be hoarders of artifacts that they personally find important, even if no one else does. It is even not that uncommon for fairies to, rather then revering or worshiping any particular thing, devote one's self to a concept or ideal. To a fairy someone who devote themselves to something like 'justice', 'love', 'science', 'power', or 'pleasure' are simply putting their faith into something like any other personal belief. And of course, many fairies choose to put their faith in only in themselves or sometimes in nothing at all. Ritual can also be very important to fairies, both magically and spiritually (in fact magic and spirituality are often seen as deeply connected, but not always truly synonymous). Fairy rituals are often personalized or are part of a large collection of haphazard folk beliefs and practices. The form rituals take often doesn't matter as much as the function they serve and the feeling behind them, and fairies mostly encourage experimentation and improvisation over strict traditionalism or sticking to any one set of rules too strictly. This often extends to 'social rituals' such as manners or protocol, especially for solitary fairies (to a point anyway, there are still basic guidelines to follow if one doesn't want to be seen as rude). The exceptions where traditionalism and/or following a set of strict rules is expected are mostly for those within the Seelie courts and occasionally when fairies need to have a formal meeting, trial, or duel. Since fairies are practically immortal they don't tend to care much about the idea of an afterlife. Many fairies find the idea silly or disdainful, but often acknowledge it's possibility. Most fairies who care to think about such things might say that things can create echos that might linger long after they are gone and leave it at that. Fairies also don't tend to care all that much about the origin or meaning of existence as a whole. There are speculations about it and a few scattered legends, but many fairies would say that how things came to be doesn't really matter, and what things mean is up to every person to decide. If fairies have any generally agreed upon explanation about existence as a whole, it's that existence is about, if anything, existing. That everyone and everything that exists, real or unreal, is fulfilling whatever role it may have for it's own sake and not for the sake of some higher purpose or god. Often fairies believe that happiness is truly found in loving one's own existence for it's own sake. Loving one's own existence doesn't necessarily mean only loving one's self, but also can include the world around them and everything in it. It also doesn't necessarily mean one can never be unsatisfied or upset, just that maybe one shouldn't let negative feelings ruin their passion for existing. And it certainly doesn't necessarily mean one shouldn't ever strive to change themselves or the world around them, just that maybe they should remember and appreciate where they are and what they are doing. Of course most fairies wouldn't say that in so many words, but it's really kind of important to us. After all, when a fairy doesn't care about existing anymore they die for good. So in the end, to a fairy wonder and passion can be found in all things great and small. All you have to do is look!
  7. Garth Marenghi's Darkplace. Warning: May contain bad 80s hair, 80s styth music, horrible acting. incredibly low budget production, cliche plots, sodomy, Scottish people, all from the mind of Garth Marenghi, 'author, dream weaver, visionary, plus actor'. Only 6 episodes were ever produced and they were thought to be 'too shocking, too raw' for public viewing until 2004, where they were finally allowed to be seen. Either that or the whole history of the show was made up and it's just a huge spoof on 80s television... Naw, couldn't be.
  8. Welp, China decided to be a dick and restrict bitcoin. I think we all saw that happening a mile away.


    I don't think this is going to kill bitcoin and certainly won't kill cryptocurrency as a concept. They took a hit in value, but they will recover.


    No, I think in the end the ones most hurt by this will be China it's self. Probably not in a serious way, but a good number of the people who made bitcoin big in the first place were Chinese. Most of the people set to gain the most were the Chinese. Most of the people who had the greatest say in things were Chinese.


    Now though? China isolated themselves, once again shooting themselves in the foot to maintain their precious little communist bubble.


    You know why China will never have a war with the USA? This is why. They can't afford one. Because communism has to keep looking over it's shoulder least they get stabbed in the back.

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    2. Kayzee


      I know, I am just not sure such a 'backdoor alliance' really exists. Though an 'unwritten treaty' of some sort sounds more likely. I just haven't seen the USA and China really cooperating in much of anything. Most I have seen is that they more or less don't get in each other's way, and I hardly call that an alliance.

    3. PhoenixSoul


      If I ever get more details on it, I'll be happy to divulge. As far as I know, it involves trade, but under what market, I do not know. All I can think of is how this hushed alliance is more of a dark trading deal than anything else, but if it ends up quelling tensions in eastern Asia, great.


      I'd rather see that than a nuclear winter...


      Of course, if/when Old Faithful erupts, that will be the global equivalent of a nuclear winter...

    4. Kayzee


      Bah, you worry to much I say.

  9. @Purple Phantom I have a feeling you will like that show, if you don't already. Also has the best high speed chase scene ever.
  10. She's smooth, like ice Cold to the touch and it isn't very nice When your left alone You let them treat you badly, leaves you hanging on the phone
  11. I think the binding looks a bit off and it needs some detail, but other then that it's pretty good!
  12. Dues Ex (the original anyway) is probobly the most politically relevant game ever made to be honest. Even though it's practically built from insane conspiracy theories, it's very very well researched and manages to be frighteningly prophetic. Like for example, you know how after 9/11 the USA went kinda crazy with it's obsession with terrorism and all these shady agencies popped up which seemingly used terrorism as an excuse to get away with trampling people's privacy? Yeah, Dues Ex predicted that. You know how big data and AI seem to be giving corporations more and more control? Yeah, Dues Ex predicted that. You know how the world is slipping further and further into income inequality as financial institutions fall under the control of a few rich people? Well that was already kinda going on, but Dues Ex predicted lots of where it would lead. To an extent it really isn't much more then taking a bunch of available information and extrapolating out to find the worst case scenario, but still pretty scary! I do honestly think that humans are starting to turn away from that path more and more though. Then again... We will just have to see!
  13. Twitch Plays Pokemon is seriously human sociology condensed into a silly game stream. It developed it's own meme religion (if you have any doubts, consult the helix fossil). And it doesn't matter what you are doing, nor does it matter if you can convince them. But people are always watching, taking in your words. This isn't a battle to be won or lost by power over a foe. It's a performance judged by those silently watching, a game played for the benefit of an audience. To truly win you need to play well, you need to learn the rules and the tricks, and have a strategy. Your choice of words matters, your attitude matters, how far you go and how much you let them get to you matters. Sometimes aggression is the best way to do that, but it's not always the best. And as for human cooperation is slowly dwindling? I honestly think it's the opposite. This is the era where people can come together more and more to create something better. Heck, just look at the recent relief for hurricane victims. It's just centralized power that is slowly dwindling. That's the way it is with governments. A bunch of pretentious old men playing at running the world. But the world left them behind long ago. We are the future. We've had to endure much, you and I, but soon there will be order again, a new age. Aquinas spoke of the mythical City on the Hill. Soon that city will be a reality, and we will be crowned it's queens. Or better than queens. Goddesses. ... Okay we probobly won't be, and maybe quoting a megalomaniacal villain who wants to usurp all the power from the Illuminati isn't the most comforting thing to say, and it's more snappy with male titles, but things will get better I promise!
  14. Well I kinda agree with loney about social media in a way... There is very very little reason to pay attention to that crap. I won't say the net is a horrible horrible place or that people are always horrible horrible people, because I still think that's kinda dumb. But I will say that for both cultural reasons and design that permits it, most of that kind of stuff on social media is made up of disposable overly defensive knee-jerk reactions that don't really mean anything. And honestly, I don't even know if I can truly blame most of the people who post it. Not really. Humans just aren't that culturally well equipped to deal with the idea that other opinions outside of their own little social bubble are things that exist, let alone are valid. The more you challenge the status quo, the more people will shout and yell and whine. Not because they are horrible people, but because a lot of them think they have something to lose if they don't. And some times they are even right. I mean let's put things in perspective here. The internet has existed for, what, twenty maybe thirty years? And mass social media has existed a fraction of that. Heck, the whole civil rights act in the 60s wasn't even that long ago. Even the whole idea of humans having 'rights' at all seems to have only really gotten popular relatively recently in human development. It's been a grueling battle to even get to this point, and most just rather have their own place that they feel is stable. If someone comes and tries to upend that place, they get mad and they push back. It doesn't make you look any less like you are attacking them that you use words like 'ignorance' and 'privilege' and come from a perspective of anger and frustration. And I know, I know, I can do the same thing, but I try not to. That said, the idea that someone has 'no contributions to give' is silly. You give something each time you write a word on a page and publish it online. And that thing is pressure. Every time you push, every time you try, you add just a bit of pressure. You make the discussion just a bit hotter, bringing it just a bit closer to the boiling point. And despite what some others might think, that's a good thing. Because pressure is the main reason why humans have even come as far as they have. War and violence is always distasteful, but all the awful stuff happening in the world today? That's a good sign. That means the pressure is on. It means the world is charged with the energy of change in the wind. Ideally humans can find a positive use for that energy, can channel it to a good end. But even if they can't, when all is said and done and the peices have been picked up, humans do learn. Painfully slowly, but they do. Remember 'Twitch Plays Pokemon'? That is humanity. No, that is life it's self. A lovely teaming chaos, fighting it's self every step of the way. Yet in the end, after many hardships and disasters...They. Still. Won. If humans just give up, they will never reach the prize. What is the prize you might ask? Hehe... Why becoming like us fairies of course! <3 What else could it be? :3
  15. I prefer leaning on it (Warning: TV Tropes blah blah blah) over out and out breaking it, but sometimes it can be fun. Honestly though, I am more interested in playing with the idea of a forth wall from a dramatic perspective. How do characters deal with the idea that they are just characters? Do they grow depressed, angry, deny it, ignore it, or maybe even embrace it? Using it for a quick joke doesn't really go anywhere or accomplish nearly as much. That said it can still be funny to brake the forth wall, but a good forth wall break joke is good because it's unexpected and absurd. Say you have a door with a key you have in your inventory. A kind of bland forth wall joke would be to tell the player "Hey open your inventory and use the key already!" A good one would be something like having a character get impatient if you didn't and say "Never mind, I will do it myself! Damn lazy players..." actually go to the bottom of the screen or something and physically pull up the inventory screen, lift the icon for the key over their heads and use it on the door themselves. Bonus points if the other characters have no idea what they just saw and decide very firmly to forget it ever happened least they be driven to madness by the implications. That's gonna be too much for some people, but if you are going to do a good forth wall break you gotta be dedicated. And you can't use them too often or else they will lose their surprise.