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So, for those who don't know this already, I've had dreams of doing what I see as a "correction" of myself. As stated in my introduction post when I first came here, I want to become a girl. This seems a bit over the top, but I mean it. I see myself perfectly as a female rather than a male. I don't want to seem like, "Oh, this guy's posing as a girl for attention!" or some bull like that. I've even dressed up several times and I was very comfortable with how I looked, felt, etc. Me wanting to be a girl goes a long way from the past, for it was a young choice. This is who I truly see myself as a person.
Throughout the years, I was always afraid of being called out as an outcast. One of my best friends was gay. People bullied him so harshly. I felt so bad for him because every night, he would come over and cry in my arms telling me how horrible they've treated him. He felt abandoned by society. I felt like that would be me as well if anyone found out I preferred being a girl rather than accepting who I was. Don't get me wrong. I love myself. The thing is though, I want to love myself even more. I felt that if I unlocked who I was in the inside and let it envelop me, I'll truly be, well, me.
Now, people look at me as if I'm joking around and poking fun at LGBT people. News flash: This is who I am. I'm not joking around. I'm not poking fun at wonderful people that practically share the same mentality with me. Some people praised me for being a strong soul and carrying out my wishes and some never spoke to me to this very day. Some even decided to beat me in the bathroom one day a school from what I can remember. I spoke in blood-soaked words: "This is me". You could criticize me, shut me out,or even assault me, but you'll never break my undying spirit. Because in the end, you'll be messing with the wrong scene girl, mate. I assure you that much.
If you have any questions or comments, just throw them at me. I'll be happy to answer to them. Once again, like always, Thanks for reading. I love you, guys! <3