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Entry 011: Clipped Wings and Broken Dreams

PhoenixSoul

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Last blog was some time ago...heh.

 

No one is really around anyway, and no one really reads these so it doesn't really matter.

 

"Clipped Wings? What ya mean by this?"

I have this growing feeling that I'm permanently imprisoned in this mortal flesh, for reasons I'll likely never know, but whomever did this to me, they do not deserve my forgiveness, regardless of intent, because I have suffered without due cause. Such is not acceptable, I was raised better than that. None of it means anything now, because I'm more and more sure that this parallel of existence has excluded all signs of the Divine Twenty-Four, and whomever designed this parallel, is likely also responsible in part or in full, for my imprisonment, and there's a good chance that I wasn't the only one. I want to scream. I want to fight this asshole. I want this piece of immoral trash who did to me to suffer as I have, to know the pain I have taken on, and for one reason, one reason alone. To end false karma. No more false karma. Goodbye to you, Church and State, to hate-filled immoral mortals, may the Void claim all of it and obliterate it in one fell swoop. If it claims me in the process, then so be it. I'll take this whole parallel with me. Better off in full erasure than to allow immorality to continue unabated.

I know I did nothing to deserve my imprisonment, nothing that any morally enriched individual would ever say that me being imprisoned was deserved in any form.
I was not perfect, far from it, but my imprisonment in mortal flesh is a far worse punishment than I've ever seen given to any individual. It's fifty thousand fold worse than any form of exile.

my imprisonment is a malicious act. Simple as that. It has allowed me to only suffer and never experience joy. You know what? I look forward to whatever calamity is coming, Yellowstone, massive meteorite, megafault collapse, black hole dissemination, whatever. I'll even take gray goo, lolz

@Kayzee You do mean a lot to me. I wish you no ill will, far from it. I'd rather be pulled from this mortal flesh prison by your own aetherial willpower.



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Have you become a JRPG villain? Because you sound like a JRPG villain. Are you that determined to be the final boss? You always seem sure a disaster is just around the corner. More then that you hope for one don't you? If you were in front of a big red 'destroy the universe' button would you press it without hesitation or remorse? Are you going to make me have to become the heroine? Am I going to half to defeat you in the end? Well, I don't want to the universe to be destroyed, I want to save it if I can, and if I can't, I will just leave. But mostly, I just want to amuse myself while I can. Cause good or bad, it's all kinda meaningless in the end anyway. What will happen will happen. What won't happen will also happen, but not here.

 

You always seem awfully sure it was an intentional malicious act imposed on you by another. What if it wasn't? But we have argued those points before. Here's a thought though: Maybe it's my fault? Maybe I called you here, just to have a friend? Maybe I am the one keeping you hear cause I don't wanna let go? I kinda want to be the final boss too ya know! I guess we will meet on the shores of the void at the end of the world then. Think you will be ready?

 

 

 

 

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Oh, suuuurrreee...lolololol
Actually, if the button was there, I'd be more likely to stumble like a klutz and press it on accident, because that would be my luck. xD

 

Anyway, I've not found anything/remembered anything that would suggest that my imprisonment here is anything but a malicious act, and I don't see that coming about either. Of course, I never know what the next hour will bring, but I do know that the chances that I'll be freed are non-zero to less than one percent.

 

I sounded more like Darkloft than anything else. I love Luxaren Allure, so that's okay with me.

 

North Korea is building submarines that can fire a single warhead, but they're waiting until they've completed an entire fleet. North Korea will be a distant memory by the time they would have a fleet completed. #BlackNetInformation

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Come on, calling on the power of the Void to obliterate things is classic JRPG villain material and you know it. Right out of Final Fantasy in fact. Or a villain from a Magical Girl show maybe. Don't make me come over there and defeat you with the power of love! I'll do it!

 

I was under the impression that you haven't found anything/remembered anything that would suggest that your imprisonment here was a malicious act either. Don't you actually have no idea what happened? I think it would be too convenient if there was a perfect scapegoat to blame in all on, one being to focus all that hate onto. And anyway, that would make for a kinda crappy ending. Imagine you finally tracking down the mysterious being that trapped you and finally defeating them. After all that pain and suffering, it's all just some random guy's fault. Just some asshole, probobly with petty reasons that aren't even the least bit interesting or compelling. The whole thing would just be a whole useless waste of time don't you think?

 

Also: North Korea is a worthless bully of a nation run by a worthless bully of a leader. I'm telling ya, while they might not exactly be harmless, the chances of them actually doing anything important is basically nil. They just wanna sit at the big kids table without being laughed at and are blowing smoke and acting tough. Not that Trump is much better mind you...

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As far as the events leading up to my imprisonment...

I was set to depart for the Celestial, and in fact, I should of been on my way there. However, in the middle of getting on the carriage that would of brought me to the passenger ship headed for Arosavara, a distant nation to the northwest of my homeland, a place I'd only heard stories about (from Zauvai no less), and then from there, I would of rode on some sort of 'air gondola' (terrible translation but I don't even know what this passenger craft looks like) on a fast trip to the heart of Viluterrin, where the Celestial was being held. Essentially, the Celestial is a massive festival held once every two hundred or so Full Moons. Dance, music, food, among many other things I know not because I had never been there.

I never left Asuria as far as I know; I was carted between carriages, only learning that something was amiss back home and I was meant to be taken to some well-hidden place for safety, and as much as I found it odd, I couldn't think for lack of sleep because I was forced to remain awake for a good portion of the time. I remember walking behind this hooded person (yeah sounds ominous-remember that I was suffering from 2AM Syndrome), stopping for a moment, before eventually being led down into a cairn, and then after being sat in a chair, lots of colorful light bands and such swirled around, and I blacked out.

Next thing I recall, I'm here, imprisoned in mortal flesh. A lot of my memory was sealed away, still is to be fair. It took a long time to remember enough to know who I actually am, and yes, before then, I just simply thought myself to be transgender. Even still, the person who I am imprisoned inside of might of been trans, but that is beyond my knowledge and is mere speculation. It could be that some sort of thing that clicked with me personally from the person I am trapped within allowed me to awaken, though I wonder if even being awake will allow anything to come of it. I have no further capability other than memory, even now.

If this was not a malicious act, or it was a malicious act but a random one, then, it would be just fine if I knew this and why. If I knew that, I could figure out how to live with it, but even those answers have not come, and if they ever do, I'll be surprised, lolz

Trump...what a joke. You know, if he hadn't bought the judge out back in the 1980's, he'd of stood trial for mass fraud and would likely still be in prison, most certainly not POTUS. That said...jail, prison, to the VOID with that. It's either exile or hanging.

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Strange, it almost sounds like one of those japanese reincarnation light novels, but in reverse.

 

Also: You might want to read about Gnosticism. One of the ideas behind Gnosticism is basically that this world is a kind of prison made by a false god who thinks he is a real god, and our souls are really from somewhere else. The rub though is that death isn't an escape, for heaven and hell are also part of the prison. The only way to escape is 'Gnosis', the hidden truth. This some say is what Jesus was actually trying to teach, but the false god's followers messed that up and censored everything. As to what Gnosis actually is? That's probobly up to the individual to discover. It might simply be the knowledge the the world is in some way false. It might be that by discovering your past life you have already found what you need. Me? I don't think it really is that black and white, but if such a false god confronts me I do think I know something to help. And that is: No matter how powerful a being is, no matter how much of reality they may seem to control, out of the unbound transinfinite possibilities there will always be a possibility for a place where they have no power, that they can't even see. No matter how much they may win, there is another reality where they will lose. That in the end, power means nothing.

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Memories and daydreams, my own worlds of fantasy and realistic fantasy. I'm an artist and that is my escape.

I'd like to think that would be enough, and maybe it is, but I just don't know why I had to deal with this at all. After all, I'm still essentially just a kid. I may look like I'm much more mature than this, but I assure you all, I was and am still not. I understand some things far better, but being thrust into a parallel of existence like this without my consent and for worse, imprisoned inside mortal flesh of an already fucked-in-the-head (as I understand it) person who likely had their head in the clouds because understanding this world was too much to bear, intent matters not, it was immoral and still is.

I've already looked into that, and yeah, I've given it serious thought. It's possible that whomever did this to me is the same false deity that's causing an irreparable imbalance in existence. Of course, I'm not certain of this being the case, but if it is, then there's not a whole lot I can do unless I can break the chains that bind me to this mortal flesh prison, to this parallel of existence that should not exist.

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Except it's not really an 'escape' now is it? But maybe it's enough. Reminds me of a puzzle in Undertale: "The far door is not an exit. It simply marks a rotation in perspective."

 

Isn't intent the very cornerstone of what morality is about? You wouldn't call a rabid dog immoral would you? Yet most would put it down just the same and call themselves 'just'. And I don't really argue that it isn't exactly, but I don't think it really is either. Justice simply has nothing to do with it. And this world is filled with rabid dogs, even if some look sane. Heck, even that false deity is more a rabid dog then anything else. His failing is one mostly born of ignorance, not malice. Does that change what you have to do? Not really. But It changes the context of why you are doing it, and it changes how you approach it.

 

You are fond of being the just avenging angel, you want to right all the wrongs you have been subjected to, you want to find who is to blame and punish them. Let's not forget though who the angels serve, who else believes themselves supremely just. Remember, this world is filled with rabid dogs. A world a rabid dogs made by a rabid dog god? Perhaps. If so, who can say you and I are not among their number? I know I am! Hehehehe... Careful, I bite. ❤️

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Avenging Angel...

 

Hmmm...

 

Nah. I want answers above all else. That's my main objective, to give it a meaning most would understand, though, I would use 'prerogative' instead.

 

If indeed, my initial theories are all correct, then you damn well can take it to the vault that I would absolutely want punitive recompense. However, I have given thought to many other possible scenarios, including one that involves me being sealed away because of some kind of cataclysm that would of been the end of my people, the end of me as well if I had remained. That scares me far more, though I don't see it being likely, the chances would be non-zero at the very least.

As things are now, I have one answer I have sought out from the beginning. If 'God' is real. 'God' most certainly is, without any doubt, a mortal-made deity for the mind. However, this was something I was easily able to find. I know not, any of the answers to the branching questions that came from this answer have asked.

Like... "Who was this deity based off of?" is one of the branching questions, and recently, I have come across a potential answer in the form of the origins of monotheistic beliefs (I forget the name of it precisely because it's long in the tongue), but I've yet to find any sort of solid answer from it.

Comparing idiots to rabid dogs, just because rabid dogs are put down as a means to end their suffering, girlll, you can seriously do better than that.

Making that exact comparison is like trying to compare and apple to a car tire and call them both edible fruits.

I would make the comparison consist of idiots to atomic decay. Both are destructive.

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Like I said before, if you ask me all your theories are both correct and incorrect, and that you in fact are still there while not being there, and that none of that was ever real in the first place, but it also was. Thus is the nature of the boundlessly infinite. Meaning is something people invented. If there is any meaning in existence, it is it's own meaning. And like I have also said before, it doesn't matter if something is real or not, or where it comes from, if it can effect us it's all the same.

 

And I did not compare idiots to rabid dogs, did I? After all, I included you and I in that comparison, and I don't think we are really idiots. And people don't put rabid dogs down to end their suffering, they put them down to prevent their own. Indeed how can we tell if someone is suffering from madness or enjoying it really, much less a dog? Idiocy isn't even really the problem. People aren't as stupid as you think. No no no... A true idiot is a greater danger to themselves that anyone else. But madness? Madness breeds. It spreads from person to person in whispers and shouts, raving and ranting, song and poem, the very words you are reading right now are soaked in it. But the worst of it, the greatest madness of all? Is the idea of sanity. Welcome to wonderland little Alice, remember what the cat says... We're all mad here. Every one of us. Those that claim otherwise are the maddest of them all.

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I've read on how diseases function; I guarantee you that a rabid animal at a certain stage of progression is suffering just as much as anyone else around them, if not more so, though the suffering may differ in type, it still is painful. So, if it cannot be treated, then the mutual benefit of ending the suffering comes forth. Fact is, it's not something any true pet lover would want to do. I hated having Max being put down, but I'm glad he no longer suffers. #bittersweetisthebestending

Anyway, when I speak of idiocy, I speak of purposely perpetuated stupidity, not ignorance from lack of awareness. The latter is just an example of an inability to have that much foresight, and that is no fault of anyone. Sanity, madness, both terms are fluff really. Being logically sound whilst at the same time artistically flowing is as balanced as one can be, and oh yeah, Amyrakunejo is absolutely logically sound and artistically flowing, you can take that to the vault.

Maybe what I know about my homeland, my homeworld (still feels weird to say that) is incomplete, and that there's more than one parallel of my own home, but I've no reason to believe that's true, nor to doubt it being true. I cannot, in any capacity, say whether or not that is true, and speculating about it gets me nowhere.

It doesn't disprove my theories, only validates why I seek answers. Of course, I know they draw near. After all...
Clock of Doom reads 11:59.51 PM, and I believe it. Just take a look around. Talamiura intends to devour this planet whole.

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Purposely perpetuated stupidity? If you aren't speaking of ignorance why do people purposely perpetuate stupidity? If they know it is stupid, would they purposely perpetuate it? Perhaps in others, but in which case they are a conman not an idiot. If they didn't know it was stupid, isn't it the result of ignorance? What you call "purposely perpetuated stupidity" and what I call "madness" are basically the same thing. Yet at the same time it's not.

 

What you assume is pure malice or selfishness, I see as people living in a dream and being unable to really comprehend the world around them. Oh some try, but in the end everyone is ignorant from lack of awareness. No one truly has the ability to have that much foresight. No matter how logical you think you are, it doesn't matter. Because logic its self is a lie. Just another story we tell ourselves. Art on the other hand... Well that's a lie too, but it knows it. It doesn't try to dress it's self as truth, and that makes it far more honest then logic. We are all artists, some of us better then others but all painting our own worlds.

 

Even though speculating about it gets you nowhere, it's all you have isn't it? And anyway it's fine. Humans are always in a hurry to get somewhere, but maybe Nowhere is where all the answers can be found? It isn't about proving or disproving it anyway. Rather I am telling you that I doubt the truth will make you happy even if you do find it. But I guess that's not really the point huh? I am taking a look around, and you know what I see? A dark room and a glowing laptop. That's the only thing here. Tell me, how can you be so sure the world will end, while I in my little room can't be sure at all the world ever existed?

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Closure. Make no mistake. Happiness is not what I seek.

One thing to note is that not everyone is fully aware of what their actions will do later on. I know that, and I'm not talking about that, at all. I speak of those who know that they're being stupid for the sake of it, and to infringe on the Free Will of others. Ignorance from lack of awareness can lead to being stupid for the sake of it, it is something I have seen before more than I can count on both hands, but cause and effect, chain of events and all that.

I'm in no hurry, really. But I would rather not be stuck in traffic, if ya get my drift. Journeying forward at a consistent speed is the best way to go.
Okay, I ripped that from the creator of Ferrari, but it still applies all the same.

You know what I see? A small room cramped due to downsizing, a lamp that's going to be turned off soon, this busted keyboard, new mouse, brightly lit 5:4 LCD monitor, and my hands in dire need of a manicure typing this out. Beyond the monitor, the window, keeping out the very cold air (welcoming this because I'm sick of the damned heat wave-it'll be gone by Saturday though). That's what I see, and what I know to be going on since I am not looking ana or kata or taravenya.

I will soon be looking at the back of my eyelids though...lolz

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I would make the argument that no one is fully aware of what their actions will do later on. That people don't know they are being stupid. Further more that they have no way of ever possibly knowing. You say you want closure. But nothing is ever completely closed. I don't think you will ever find the thing that will let you lock it all in the closet.

 

So you can see the past and future then is what you are saying? You know exactly what happened and what will happen? Is that what you actually see? Sounds like you are looking into something other then the normal three dimensions to me! But I guess you knew I would say that given your mastery of looking through time. Oh! Did you know I would say this: Mafushalahana! Opien Ziggerot! N to the N to the N! Hehe, maybe you know I would say something silly at least, but that hardly takes looking in the past and future.

 

But I guess everyone sorta looks into the past and future all the time. Most of the time though it's shrouded in a dense fog which people can't see that much into. Shapes in the fog may tell people some things, but not much. I am pretty sure that's just how time is, but if you can see it perfectly that would prove me wrong I guess! You would know more then me that the end is coming. Welp! Guess that's it! Guess we are all screwed right?

 

Though many many people have said they could see the future and it hasn't come to pass. Maybe it did for them in another timeline. Regardless, will you forgive me if I try to change things anyway? Not much else to do right?

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The rebalancing event that will force people to stop being stupid en mass, is not something I know verbatim. Something I am grateful for.

Talamiura is the avatar of death (element); the dark energy will consume the mental capacity of those who oppose equal and reputable society, at a subconscious level. Whatever it is that brings society to the en mass realization that they won't survive unless they change, Talamiura's wrath will be in full force in the background.

When I say closure is what I seek, it's that of the conclusive answer. Once I know why, I can move forward from that point. To no longer revisit the issue in a problematic state of presence is closure without doubt or question.

Your sense of humor, is something I do indeed treasure, lolz

"Hindsight is always twenty-twenty, but looking back, it's still a bit fuzzy. You speak of mutually assured destruction!? Nice story; TELL IT TO READERS' DIGEST!!"
~lyrics from Megadeth's Sweating Bullets

Eh, you can try. There's no harm in making your own path, so as long as in the process, you harm no one else intentionally.

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Hmm, a 'rebalancing event'? Now that's probobly going to happen eventually for one reason or another, I just don't think it's going to happen because of some big sudden external disaster. It doesn't need to. And in a way, it would be more impacting if it doesn't. You may imagine one singular event that scars the world and changes the coarse of history, but I think once the crisis passes humans will return to how they always have been. What I imagine happening though isn't like that. What I think will happen is a chain reaction of little events that causes more and more people to lose faith in the lies they tell themselves. It's already started, and is getting more and more pronounced. People keep looking for new lies to believe in, but eventually they will run out. I do find it amusing that you want a "equal and reputable society" so much when I think that is one of the biggest lies of them all. :3

 

You want a conclusive answer? Personally I don't believe in conclusive answers. I literally don't think there is any such thing. I suppose their are levels of conclusivity that are acceptable, though I am not sure you will ever reach them on this point.

 

 

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I guess everyone views what an equal and reputable society is, very differently.
To me, it is quite simple. You live life on your own terms, but cause no undue harm to anyone else. I was raised in such a society. If it worked for my people, it can work for anyone, because of how simple it is in execution of the day to day things.

 

It's not one singular massive event that will begin the shift, it will be the one thing that happens to conclude the shift, whatever that may be. It could very well be that those guilty of harming their own kin for their own ill-gotten gains (speaking of people harming other people for the sake of it) will have simply vanished, no traces of their existence left behind except memories and hard copies that will not have any meaning post mortem. I don't know. 

Anyway, I know I'll find answers, I just desire to have them sooner rather than later.

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The problem is that "undue harm" is juuuust vague enough in some peoples eyes that you kind of need to specify what it means, but if you specify what it means your basically creating a hard law based on your opinion which is the cause of a lot of society's problems. One of the big problems with society is that chasing the dream of 'equality' and 'reputability' is one of the things that ends up causing the most inequality and disreputability. I mean, it's possible for your idealized society to exist I suppose, but... Well, you were basically a princess in that past life right? How much of the bad side of the society were you really allowed to see? You sure there wasn't any unrest just below the surface? I doubt it was as perfect as you think, or if it was that it was as stable as you think.

 

Living life on your own terms while causing no undue harm to anyone else is still a good place as any to start, but for us fairies at least that usually means living far apart from one another in small groups or by ourselves and interacting as little as possible. We have a loose association of 'leaders' to aid in conflict resolution, but that's kinda it. Other then that we are totally on our own. The exception are trooping fairies, but their societies are hardly equal or reputable.

 

To me you seem kind of obsessed with judgement from on high on the 'guilty', but to me that is the worst kind of 'justice'. You are explicitly advocating the rule of the weak many by the strong few, that 'higher beings' have the right and duty to punish those that offend their personal morals. I would say it reminds me of the Unseelie, except they are far more... honest? Unseelie basically believe that someone's value is dependent on how strong they are or how useful they are. They don't wax poetic about 'justice' and 'righteousness'. The Seelie might, but mostly only to look good. At least the Seelie are honest in their dishonesty though, they know what type of game they are playing.

 

I am sure you will find answers, I just doubt they will satisfy you.

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Take, for example, a bully in a public school yard that pushes a kid off the swing without provocation. It's a specific example, but that is an example nonetheless, of undue harm. The kid on the swing did nothing to deserve being treated in such a way. Undue harm is not vague, it's just not super specific nor does it need to be.
If one decides to act in any way shape or form that will infringe upon the Free Will of another, or with that as intent, that is undue harm, but such can be so many different scenarios, that describing it in a specific way would be impossible to do.

 

Back home, we live by many philosophies, but this one is something we've adhered to:
"Live your life, as you will; cause no trouble, and we're square."
Essentially, do no harm, and none shall come to you as a result. It doesn't mean that harm won't come, what it does mean is that said harm would not be on fault of the afflicted. It falls under the karma category really.

 

About the punishment... it isn't about specific individuals, it's about the imbalance as a whole. More often than not, there are many afflicted by the wrath that in truth, had not caused the imbalance or had any reason to be afflicted, but were due to various reasons, like trying to aid the afflicted, being associated with the afflicted, and so on. The imbalance removal is imprecise, and is so for a reason. The Divines don't play favorites, they can't. It's not even remotely possible to selectively choose who is erased and who isn't, unless they're marked for erasure, but that in itself requires the actions of someone with the capability to do so, and as far as I know, I'm the only one who has a capable weapon of doing such, though I don't have my sword in my posession at the present (fat lot of good it does me then lol).

Plausible doubts all around, but I do hold on to the hope that the answers will provide closure. I mean, if it turns out that all my theories are wrong and this is some sort of BS exile, that my people were in on, it would still be definitive enough. I'd happily go with the reaper then, because if my own people would turn on me, then they don't deserve me around. I'd take that from them, happily. I'd be just fine going to the Rift.

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Except that most humans don't act like that, or at least can't be proven to act like that. They will make up a provocation in their head and actually believe it. They will come up with some excuse, some reason to attack someone, even if it seems like bullshit to you. The strong will even attack the weak in a misguided attempt to make them strong, or so they will say. True 'evil' may exist, but if it does it is rare and hard to pinpoint. Most humans do not do horrible things because they are 'evil', most humans do horrible things in a misguided attempt to be 'good'.

 

If you believe that acting in any way shape or form that will infringe upon the Free Will of another is wrong, then why don't you also think punishing people for their 'sins' is also wrong? That is also infringing upon the Free Will of another. Karma may very well be a thing that exists, but if so it is not for you or anyone to dish out. Justice is a dangerous delusion that directly leads to more of the 'injustice' it tries to fight. Any imbalance that exists will either correct it's self over time, in which case intervention is unnecessary, or it won't, in which case the imbalance is probobly important to keep things going. Would you correct the imbalance between matter and antimatter? That would just result in everything in the universe blowing up. Would you try to perfectly balance all the energy in the universe everywhere? That would result in heat death.

 

I for one think closure will only come once you have decided that story is over. I think you need to either write an ending or abandon it. Even if you never really finish getting all the answers, just make some up! Obviously not just any answers will do, you need to believe them. If you can't, abandon that story and start a new one. Maybe one that makes you happy? It's possible! I know it may seem like I am being a bit dismissive, but I mean it. You are the one telling yourself the story of your life. But I guess, we all grow sort of attached to our own stories. I can't say yours will have a happy ending, or even necessarily should. But in the end, I would at least like you to be able to look at yourself and say "Yeah, that was a good story" even if it turns into the kind that makes you cry.

 

Besides you aren't the only one watching anymore. I only know a bit of the story, but it's interesting, if highly troubling. But it's not my story, even if I do manage to sneak in a line here and there. :3

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Even still, the made-up provocation doesn't justify anything. If it did, then the likes of Kefka Palazzo would be seen as a hero.


You see, I noted that particular example because it is one that can be pinpointed easily without any convolution. It is far from one that can be defined as evil intent, though infringement is infringement, intent is not given pause for determining this. Another example is something I have seen, and though there is clear infringement of Free Will, there is no clear intent to cause harm in any way shape or form.

I know someone who deals with a parent who deals with their own trauma by drinking, snorting cocaine, and being verbally abusive to everyone, but especially to their oldest child, but the parent is just as much a victim of the Big Pharma puppeteers, and even admits to being weak, a coward, and struggles to change. They don't wish any ill of any of their children, and are swept up in moments of harsh emotions, addiction, and seemingly insurmountable stresses from multiple sources. The parent still infringes on the Free Will of their children, but intent is not evil. Currently, I know that the parent in question has gone into rehab, but that's about all I know. Such evils stem from the things forced on the parent that have passed onward, but is in no way the fault of the parent short of the few things they could of done as preventative measures. Even still, this parent who wants their children to be happy, would likely face erasure.

The punishment in the form of erasure is not something just thrown at will against anyone; it is the final and last resort. I only see it coming because of what's going on all at once right now. How it comes, if anyone even notices, that I don't know. I'm not in any way, a part of it, I have no say, and I'm glad for that.

The imbalance between matter and antimatter? They're looking at that all wrong. Matter and antimatter exist in several phases of density, elasticity, and acceleration. Matter and antimatter are always in motion in one form or another. Always moving, always bounding and rebounding (bump and extend), and exchanging sub-particles as needed, thus allowing density to change consistently. Thing about that imbalance, is that even if there's more of one than the other, the math balances out. When looking at matter and antimatter, whether or not that is in balance, is all in the mathematical framework. If the framework was imbalanced, I wouldn't be typing here, you wouldn't be responding, my people would be gone, and everything else would be as well. Everything.

My story? Only books, movies, TV shows, and such have endings. lolololol
Closing a chapter only means moving onward. There's a far better way to describe this.

 



THE END, BUT NOT REALLY

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And what if all provocations are made-up? A person who does their best to be a 'good person' and has no vices or problems will also 'infringe on the Free Will of others' if they think it is 'the right thing to do'. Punishment is as much an infringement of Free Will as much as anything else. Any being who willingly inflicts erasure regardless of the reason is still inflicting erasure. Last resort or not, the result is the same: One being who judges those they believe are under them. They will say how it's about 'the greater good' and come up with as many excuses as they can, it doesn't change what they are doing.

 

At least Kefka Palazzo was, in a way, honest. He didn't try to be sympathetic, he didn't try and tell people he was doing the right thing, and he definitely wasn't interested in any 'greater good'. He played his role because that's what he wanted to do. He didn't want to erase everything out of some meaningless idea of balance, he did it because in his eyes it was all meaningless. No he wasn't a hero. He would never be a hero. But I can admire him a lot more for that then I would if he was one of those villains trying to destroy the would 'for it's own good'. And in turn I can admire heros a lot more when they don't fight for some great principle, but for themselves and their own wishes.

 

On the subject of balance... Isn't the most balanced thing possible nothing at all? Nothingness has nothing to be imbalanced after all.  Maybe in some ways everything is more or less 'balanced' by everything else, but to me it's the imbalances that really stand out. Things are defined by contrast. Light and dark, hot and cold, all things can only exist because of imbalance. Trying to balance everything just leads to entropy, like I said heat death. And yeah, maybe it only seems like an imbalance because of a limited perspective, but if so the true shape of everything has no shape at all.

 

There may be no endings, or their may be many endings followed by new beginnings. Depends on your perspective.

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I guess that you haven't figured it out yet; all of this is based on what I've read from Shinryu's Grimoire. Essentially their observations. I mean, otherwise, I wouldn't be able to correlate what's going on now with what is likely to happen later on. That said, it's not that I fully trust what Shinryu had written, it is more that the information is all I have to go on. 
Punishment based on personal gains or personal grudges is no different. That isn't what the Divines do at all. I mean, I live in an area surrounded by these kinds of idiots, and I could be erased along with them. Yeah, I've considered that being a motive for my imprisonment too.

Kefka was mostly honest, when confronted, otherwise, a very sly and sneaky individual.

Heat death. Again, as long as the math checks out in that department, good to go. The true shape of everything? All shapes.

I'll stick with '...but not really'

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