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I just want everyone to know that I'm okay now. My mind and attitude sort of went to shit for a week or so there, but I'm doing okay now.
As agonizing as it is, I have shelved my rpg ambitions for the time being. I came to the harsh realization that I'm a nobody in the game development world. No one knows who I am, what my styles and values are as an artist. I have no credentials here, and as such, no one will invest in my ideas, even if they might sound decent. Add to that the fact that everyone usually has their own active agenda, well there's little work for a story guy at present.
Having accepted this (with great difficulty), I have returned to what I know best (even though games were my first love).
Role playing allows me to tell a different sort of story, that's framed in an entirely different context. In many ways, that's a herculean task by comparison, but it comes naturally to me. And I'm content to go back to the play-by-post grind, but I can't help but lament for projects like Overworld, that will probably never connect with kids the way vintage rpgs connected with me, and ultimately saved my life.
Again, it's agonizing, but I've accepted it. I've actually begun exploring the idea of turning game concepts like Overworld into RPs, although it doesn't transfer that well. My creative style is so particular, it's nearly impossible to port my stores from one medium to another.
So for now, I bid thee a fond farewell. You may seem me kicking around, as I can't resist messing with the Loose Leaf generator parts.
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You can't make a game alone huh? I beg to differ. Noting notable coming out of RM engines huh? What's this then? Or this? Or this? If you think the only games worth a damn are ones with huge teams that churn out games like a factory, boy are you in the wrong place. Smaller personal games can be just as good, and I don't think I need to start breaking out very example in existence to prove that. And on the other hand, a large team of 'professionals' didn't keep Final Fantasy 13 from being widely seen as crap now did it? Sure, that game might have it's defenders I guess, but I have five words for you to prove that the corporate-run game factory isn't all it's cracked up to be: 'Final Fantasy: All The Bravest'. Low blow? Maybe. But the game also was to fans. :3
Not that any of that really matters, because I don't care about fame or success. I never really have. Everything I have done, I have done because it's fun to play around with scripting. I wasn't even trying to make an actually game till like last year or so. I found my little scripts rewarding for a time, and a few people liked them. That was enough. I spend the majority of my time here helping others rather then trying to do a big project myself. I made some friends and maybe some enemies, and had fun.
Now? Well it might be nice if my game has a small following at least, I doubt it will happen and sure as heck won't happen here. But I plug away at it because it's still fun to mess with from time to time. And I havn't gone to other forums because, to be honest, it just seems like a huge bother to keep up with. I am antisocial at the best of times, so surrounding myself with a bunch of people all the time? No thank you. Also: I have a website? You mean these forums? It's not like they are mine or anything, I just hang out here.
The rare exceptions that only prove the rule.
We could argue til the forums close down but the proof is in the pudding, my dear.
How do exceptions prove a rule anyway? I never got that. Wouldn't the very fact that their are exceptions prove that a rule isn't really a rule at all, and is just a trend at best? How can a rule be a rule if their are exceptions (that are not written as part of the rule it's self I mean)? Doesn't that defeat the whole point in having rules?
Anyway, I refute that these exceptions are all that rare. Or not that much more rare then Sturgeon's law would allow for anyway. Here is the thing about games and in fact most kind of media: Most of it ends up flying completely under everyone's radar, and the stuff that doesn't isn't always the best. Sometime the stuff that makes a real impact can be completely random. I mean yeah, a big company with an excessive marketing budget might get noticed a bit more often, but most of the games that get a really big marketing budget tend to play it very safe. Meanwhile every once and a while we have a game like Cave Story which back in the day just kinda came out of nowhere and almost single handedly put the whole indie game scene on the map. Or, maybe more relevant to RPG Maker, how Yume Nikki kicked off a huge RPG Maker horror game craze for a while there.
Am I saying that anyone here is going to get rich and famous off their RPG Maker projects? Ha! Not likely. It's possible sure, but so is randomly winning the lottery. No, what I am saying is, that maybe you shouldn't dismiss out of hand the work people are doing just because it doesn't have the immediate gratification you might be looking for. If it isn't for you that's fine, but don't you think it's just a little bit insulting to say we are all losers that will never amount to anything? Retreating to thrive in your own bubble community of RP enthusiasts isn't any better you know.
You know, you said 'the proof is in the pudding', but the actual original saying is 'the proof of the pudding is in the eating'. If you don't want any pudding, that's fine, but you don't have to insult the cook for putting it on the menu!
Okay, that may or may not be a horrible analogy, I just really think 'the proof of the pudding is in the eating' is a pretty cool saying and wanted to do something with it.